Both of them like to shop and spend money. Let me correct that, LOVE to shop and spend money, and visit new places. They were like little kids at Disney Land. I wouldn't be a bit surprised if they went to Paris for lunch! It was astonishing to me just how fast Linda got used to having lots of money! And, on top of all of that, it turns out that she is some kind of entrepreneurial genius, with the same uncanny luck that her uncle had! There was also a dark and unpredictable side to her that really scared me!
For example, just last week, we flew to Los Vegas to see some of the shows. I have a gambling problem, so I had to just watch while she threw her money away! It put a big knot in the pit of my stomach!
We hadn't been in town for more than a few hours, and she had already dumped more than a million dollars! We were drawing a large crowd. There was nothing, really, that I could say to her. I mean, it was her money to do with as she pleased. I was just the boyfriend. I had to go into the Men's Room to throw up. There was another guy in there throwing up as well. It was as though we were in hell, and they had taken over her body, like the movie, "Invasion of the Body Snatchers", intent on taking every penny she had. I felt so angry and frustrated that I wanted to sick Kronos on them, and have him do a "Sodom and Gomorra" number, but I also knew that he would just laugh, because it was way below his dignity.
I finally got the nerve to go back to the table. I had a terrible urge to have a drink, but it passed. As I approached her table, I couldn't really see what was going on because of the huge crowd that had gathered all around it. I stood on my tip toes, but everyone suddenly seemed much taller than me, even the women. Fearing the worst, I had to ask a man what was going on. He said that some woman had the dice, and was winning on every throw. People were fighting to get into the action! Security was swarming all over the place! They finally had to close the table because it was becoming too dangerous for her! Even a fist fight had broken out! Linda, for some unimaginable reason, had begun to win!
The management comped us a room, and treated us like royalty. By that afternoon, she had recouped her losses, and was ahead by several million! I couldn't stand to watch, because it was making me shake inside, but I was compelled to watch anyway, like a mindless automaton. I was first afraid because I thought she was capable of losing her entire fortune, and now I was afraid because she was winning too much! I was afraid someone would find us along side of some deserted road, with two shots to the head for each of us! I guess I had seen too many movies, because the casino actually seemed happy when she won. They made a big deal out of it, because it was the best publicity they could get! What little she won was nothing to the amounts of money people would lose trying to emulate her. She literally could not lose! Even on the roulette table, which is notorious for having the worst odds. Here she managed to break the bank! They literally ran out of money! I mean at something like 35 to 1 odds at table limits, you figure it out. And, she never lost, not even one single time! Incredulous, I had asked her how on earth she did it?
"I just play a little game with the roulette table. It is like a small child, and it gets bored, so I play this little hide and go seek game with it. I say, "I bet you can't find me here", and it always finds me! Every time! When it finds me I say, "Oh! Oh! You found me again!" She said, as though she was talking to a toddler. "I bet you really can't find me here!" She said, patting the table, and with that she place a table limit bet, which they had increased several times, on "Double Zero, Green".
Double Zero Green, is something that had not come up even once all the time she had been playing. The knot that had been in my stomach was now in my throat, (I was pretty sure it was my balls.) I heard her say in a childish teasing way, "I bet you can't find me here." They spun the wheel. The little ivory ball went round and around, and finally slammed into a slot with that inimitable clack. "Double zero Green!" The crowd that had gathered cheered, including the casino employees. Even the "pit boss"couldn't contain his amazement! Then she did it again! "Double zero Green!"
There were many people who were obviously working for the casino. Security, pit bosses, and even the bosses of the pit bosses. They were all shaking their heads in amazement. Especially Security, because there was no possible way she could be cheating! They see people come and go all day long, everyday, year in and year out. Some of them have worked in casinos for years, but none of them had ever seen or even heard of anything like Linda! She was beyond amazing. Finally they had to shut down the table again, with apologies. They wanted us to stay and see the shows, and enjoy the finest dining in town, which were all comped.
(I know you know what comp means, but just in case, it means it was free.) They comped us the room reserved for dignitaries! It was huge, with lavish furnishings! I mean it was so big that I thought I could get lost! There was even a large Jacuzzi right in the middle of the bathroom. There was a bar in the living room, and a monstrous television, with every conceivable channel, even porno! I, of course, went around looking for hidden cameras. Satisfied that there were none, I then went around with a quarter, checking to see if the mirrors were real or two way. In case you don't know how to do that, you put the edge of the quarter up against the mirror. If you can see any space at all between the quarter and its double image, this means that the mirror is a regular mirror. If the quarter and its image seem to touch, it is a two way mirror! If you are a woman, try this next time you are in a public dressing room. Be sure to try it at home first to see what a normal mirror looks like. It doesn't have to be a quarter. Any coin will do.
They even supplied us with a limousine. They knew it was good business to keep us around for as long as possible, hoping that we would lose it all back plus millions more! After all, the odds were in their favor. I mean, this is what kept them in business. They were no dummies, I was sure they knew exactly who she was, and how much she was worth! I was also sure that they knew exactly who I was, and that I could find myself escorted outside if I tried to interfere with her!
I had read a true account of a Japanese business man who walked away with three million of the casinos money. "They" fixed it so that his Lear jet was delayed. "Engine problems" they told him, and with apologies, comped him a room. He had been playing very aggressively. Now he began playing conservatively. He not only lost the three million he had won, but lost an additional million to boot! He was one unhappy Samurai!
I supposed if we really needed the money, we would have lost. However, the roulette table crew made out pretty good. Linda was very generous. She gave hand fulls of chips to everyone there from the guys on the wheel, all of the way up the ladder to the top bosses, and a chip to everyone at the table, just for being there, many of whom made out quite well just following her lead! She explained. "They work hard for their money, sweetheart. I understand that they work for practically nothing, and depend upon gratuities. And besides, it is so much fun!" I said that what she had given them they could all retire! She replied with her adorable innocent logic. "After all, it is the casinos money." She had such a pure outlook on life. The Universe had truly blessed her, and me for just knowing her. I was starting to feel like an old miser next to her. I just couldn't seem to lighten up and have fun. I seemed to have become, among other things, a skeptic as I grew older. I made a mental note to ask Kronos about this.
Anyway, I didn't realize just how boring I had become until Linda began to complain. I knew I was probably becoming kind of boring, with trying to write and all. I just didn't realize exactly how boring until Linda asked. "Why don't we make love any more?" Yikes! I thought. I never dreamed I would hear those words from my "little honey bucket"?
I could tell that it was hard for her to say this, because beneath the money, clothes and great car, which she drove like a maniac, was still the little lost puppy that Froggy had handed off to me at her aunts wake.
"Linda, you know that I love you with all of my heart. You are the sexiest woman I have ever seen! I love your sense of humor and how smart you are, how you look, how you smell, but this writing is taking my creative urges away. I mean, I think it is called "business mans impotency" hehe." "But, you are not a business man." She said, sincerely, trying to understand. "Look." I said, getting defensive, I just don't feel like talking about it right now." As an after thought I asked. "How long has it been?" Working in non-linear time, it could have been a week, a month or even longer! "Five days counting today." she said as sweetly as she could. I could feel that she was concerned, but I just didn't have the energy to try to explain.
I am a great fan of Ethan and Joel Coen. They are absolute geniuses! I love all of their movies. We had a tape of theirs playing, it was one of my favorites, "Raising Arizona", with Nicolas Cage and Holly Hunter. It was the part where his wife told him to watch out for the babies fontanel. You know, that soft spot on the top. It is very soft and vulnerable, kind of right in the middle and on top of its' little head. We were both tired, and I guessed we dozed off, because the next thing I knew, someone was handing me a baby, and I was pleading for them not to give it to me, that I was afraid to hold it! "Oh! No! Please no! I am afraid of hurting its fontanel!" Someone was saying. "Don't be such a fraidy cat." And then, in slow motion, the nightmare began! As I took the baby, to my utter horror, my middle finger slipped, of all possible places, straight down into it's fontanel, right up to the third knuckle! I have never been so appalled in my whole life! It was then I awakened and heard Linda moan, "Oh honey!"
Kronos and I met in a Mexican restaurant for a change, and to my surprise, it was full of people! "Are those real people?" I asked, not knowing what to think. "Yes, they live here in the Astral world. They are just as real as you or I. The only difference is that they no longer have a physical body, the way you do. This particular realm attracts people who have died, but are not aware of it."
Can they see us?" I was very curious. "Yes, you can even interact with them. However, that is not the reason I brought you here. I would like you to get used to doing "double vision" while you are with other people. Eventually, you will communicate and time travel with me, and on your own, without ever leaving your physical body." How great I thought, this sure would solve the problem of having to sneak, so Linda wouldn't know that I was time traveling again.
I looked around. I could swear it was a Mexican restaurant in the "physical plane". I could hear conversations, the clinking of silverware, the clank of the cash register. I could smell the medley of wonderful smelling Mexican food, beans, cheese, chips and dip, beef and pork, and various sauces, and even beer. Thankfully, no one smoked. I felt the table, it was solid. The silverware was metal and cool to the touch. The only thing I noticed missing was any kind of dirt or little imperfections, like scratches on the table. Everything looked new. I looked at the people, they were without exception, all beautiful!.
Kronos was watching me, obviously proud of his student. "You have come a very long way since we first started. I know you can't really tell just how much you have grown, because you are always the last to know this kind of thing, but none the less, it is true." I tried to tell the difference, but I seemed just the same to me."
Kronos switched to "double vision", and so did I, tracking where he was in time. Hmmmm! I certainly couldn't do this when we first started! We were in the 6d void. It seemed a contradiction in terms to be in a void, and at the same time, in a Mexican restaurant.
"If you will recall, we were examining the primordial creation of hydrogen atoms, formed from the fusion of black energy, forced out of absolute zero. At the time, I mentioned that each hydrogen atom, whose numbers seemed to run into infinity, was a unique and complete universe unto itself. I also mentioned that we live inside of one of these universes." He paused, looking at me. "I sense that you are still skeptical."
Suddenly, we were no longer using double vision, but were actually in the 6d, I assumed, for a more intensified study. "I am going to give you a little quiz that will help you fully realize that what I say is factual truth, and not merely a nice theory. "I was amused by Kronos and his surprise quiz. I had hoped that I was growing out of the need for quizzes.
Kronos was gearing up for something big, perhaps a grand finally! "I want you to assume, for the moment, that we are indeed inside of a single hydrogen atom. Now, look all about you and tell me what you see?" I hadn't been in the 6d in a while, and I had almost forgotten how utterly black and still it was. Even more quiet than the desert, way out away from everything. I guess it was because you could hear your own pulse pounding in your head, on the desert, whereas, in the 6d, you had no pulse to hear! Or, for that matter, no ears to hear with either! Hehe. I soaked in the serenity of the place, until Kronos reminded me that I was in the middle of a quiz!
"Huh? Oh yes! Alright, I am looking, looking, looking, and I see nothing, nothing, nothing, just blackness, which I sense is immense!" I could tell that Kronos was searching for just the right combination of words and facts that would bring about the desired flash of understanding necessary to bring home exactly what he wished to convey.
"What was the most obvious structure of the hydrogen atom's we studied?" Well, the most obvious, or at least the simplest structure, was that the proton, which represented the universe of "white light", existed within the electron field, which represents the universe of black energy. Kronos laughed as he picked me up and sat me on the crook of his arm. His aura was brighter than normal. "Assuming that we are, at present, inside one of those atoms, which half would we be in?"
"It seems that we would definitely be in the half without illumination, the electron field." "Exactly so!" He said, encouraging me. I could tell he, obviously, was leading me somewhere, but although I felt I knew intuitively, I still couldn't quite pull it all together enough to put it into words. "Now, if that is true, where is the proton?" Yes, I thought, where was that pesky devil, for no matter where I looked, there was no sign of a proton mass. It should have been there as bright as the sun on a clear day! I could tell that Kronos was getting a kick out of my bewilderment.
"The proton is just there, in the seventh dimension." He laughed. I was really confused now. I asked in all sincerity. "Is this is a trick question?" I assumed by his silence that it was not. Hmmmm, if we are in the 6d and the proton field is located in the 7d, then we would not be able to see it because of the rule that says, one may see in consciousness, the dimensions existing below, in vibration, but not the dimensions existing above."
;"Aha! Now your thinking! This is true, but notice that the 6d is a void. There is nothing, in the nature of creation outside of the 6d. This is because the 6d "exists" outside of the creative field, and above it in terms of vibration. The black energy contained here is so thin that it is no longer susceptible to fusion. Also, vibration does not particularly affect it, except in very temporary ways. If sufficiently disturbed, it will phosphoresce. This is how we see starlight." He looked at me smiling his kids smile. "Do you give up?" I had to concede. I was at a loss to even venture a wild guess where the 7d and the missing proton was! I nodded my head.
"But first, a fast re-cap to make sure you understand that there is only one void. The first dimension. It is filled with black energy. There is only one universe of white light, the second dimension. It is the void in its disturbed state. There is also the multi-verse of many colors, the third dimension, which are simply components of white light." We were doing double vision as he spoke, seeing each universe as he numbered them.
"There is a mirror universe that reflects the third dimension, it is in every way, the exact opposite of the 3d. This is the forth dimension. These two dimensions, the 3rd and the 4th, are simply two halves of the fifth dimension. By transcending the two halves, we find our viewpoint shifted to within the fifth dimension, which is a universe of white light. Remember that there is only one universe of white light. The 5d is a state of white light that, because of our relative configuration, is entirely different from the white light state of the 2d, and the 7d. In other words, changing our viewpoint by mastering the various configurations, allows us access to all levels of consciousness. This is a big step on the lightly trodden road of becoming God conscious!
"The sixth dimension is accessed by transcending the emotional need for "form" altogether. If we acquire the 5d through a process of denial, as taught to many devotes found in any number of esoteric groups, we find our configuration automatically providing a viewpoint of the second dimension of white light. Although this actually does lead a spiritual seeker to white light, it is, most likely, not at all the white light configuration they were seeking! Which, preferably, would be the fifth dimension of white light, which is the accumulation of five separate and distinct dimensions, or the seventh dimension of white light, which is the accumulation of seven separate and distinct dimensions. If we transcend the lower numbered dimensions, one through five, through a process of acquisition, we find ourselves in the 6d, which, eventually can lead to the white light state of the seventh dimension, which is the most preferable in terms of grades of consciousness and bliss."
"By "process of acquisition", I mean holding on to the accumulation of the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and 5th dimensions while carefully extricating oneself from them, this produces a configurational viewpoint that allows us to re-enter the void from above, in terms of vibration, and outside of creation in terms of fusioned matter! Whereas, when we perceive the void as the 1d, it exists" below, in terms of vibration, and within creation as a vibration-less platform. It is important to understand these two distinctions, because it is cause for a major division among several of your peoples religions."
He playfully checked my ears to make sure no smoke was coming out. "Let's see, no smoke there, what about here? Nope, no smoke here either! Does this mean you are understanding the recapitulation?" I suddenly felt overwhelmingly shy. I involuntarily covered my eyes as I said that I did. I hated it that he could that to me, seemingly at will! After all, I was a grown man! But I had to smile at the silliness of it all.
Kronos continued. "The seventh dimension is not visible from here because it is contained inside of the 6d. By this I mean that our viewpoint has to change to one of internalization, rather than the way it is now, which is externalized. In other words, in the 6d we are viewing all directions of "out". By changing our viewpoint to all directions of "in", we will access the seventh dimension, which is the first level of "God Consciousness", which, by the way, is called "Cosmic Consciousness". This is an important point to remember, if you are to talk intelligently about the various kinds of consciousness."
"Any questions?" I shook my head, because there were none I could think of. "Alright." He said, with a gleeful look, go ahead and access the 7d." "Hmmmmmmmmm! I guess I did have a question. How exactly, does one do that?"
Kronos was obviously pleased. He had skillfully brought me to where he had desired for me to be at this point in our lessons.
I sensed that everything I had learned so far was designed to bring me to this very moment of understanding so that we could finally experience the ineffable bliss and wonderment of Nirvana!